Forever

It has been sooo long since I have posted anything.. work has been hectic and i have been so busy. So i gave up on weight watchers... I'm a quitter but I am still trying to lose weight. I am going to a weight dr, but havent started the meds because I have had a severe sinus infection. I can't even tell ya what i have been up too. Ok my sister moved in with us because her and her b/f broke up. I need a well deserved vacation. lol Oh and my ex sang at the grand ole opry in liberty last weekend. He did a real good job. I am proud of him and I am sure my baby is proud of his daddy too. Other than that nothing real exciting... but i do need to make a trip to my mil's soon... It's almost annabelles birthday and I am send her present to her today.... also logan and caleb went and took halloween pics last weekend.. they are both going to be flash , and they look sooo dadgum cute.. I am so excited about Halloween, everyone stay safe and eats lots of candy for me :)Other than that life is the same ole same ole.... I miss ya Jeneice and I will see ya soon... :)

Halloween 2008

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

I am so excited about Halloween. We just got our costumes in the mail the other day. I am going to be Wednesday from the Addams Family... Brad is going to b my pimp....lol and Caleb is going to be FLASH. He is real excited about Halloween this year too. We are going to a Halloween party at Mike and Raeannan's. It should be a REAL good time. The weekend before halloween My MIL wants me to come up to her house to take Caleb to a festival up there... So I will probably b doing that aswel. So many plans soooo little time.. HeHeHe!!! As you can see I have already picked out my favorite pumpkin this year.... lol

After Ike

Ok so we survived Ike.... thank god. I have officially made up my mind I am not staying next time. We went without lights for about 5 days and it was terrible. We tried leaving after the storm and were flooded on a bridge with water rising on both sides of us. I was scared to death. I can't believe the damage this storm has caused for everyone. I also had a tree fall on my car :( but that is minor compared to most damagae that has occured. Things are slowly getting back to normal. Work is tough because of the storm, it has put us all on edge. I am so greatful to have made it out alive and I will heed the warning next time... everyone is evacuating. Ike was a mean one.... Never Again. Now I must get back on track with my weight loss efforts and everything else I am trying to acheive. I thought i would let my fellow bloggers know that I am alive and everything is going to be ok. I pray for those who have lost everything in this storm. May they have the strength to rebuild and move on.

Another about IKE

Ok I am really nervous... the wind has picked up ALOT and the storm isn't even here yet. GEEZ i shouldve just left. I know god will watch over us and we will be ok. But i am really scared. My kid is getting ansy and wonders why I don't want him out of my sight. I just don't know what to expect next and I just really hope everyone is being safe. The lights have already flickered a couple of times I am really dreding the storm actually getting here. The rain hasn't started yet, we have only received tons of wind. My car is outside and I am afraid its in a danger zone... but oh well that is one thing that is replaceable. Althought I did just get it. Ok enough for now. I am really frightened. Lord please watch over all the people that I love. :) Keep them safe from harm.

Hurricane Ike

Ok... so we made the decision to "hunker down" at Raeannan and Mike's. I am getting really nervous at this point. I worry so much about everyone and how they will be during the storm. I just hope everyone stays safe and makes the right decisions. I not only worry about keeping myself safe but more importantly keeping my kiddo safe. Afterall he is my reason for breathing. :) All in all I am nervous and I will just pray for the best. The last thing I have to say is "TAKE A HIKE IKE"

Feeling Very Greatful

I am finally feeling much better today....about alot of things. I woke up to a wonderful husband laying right beside me, he got up and left for work as I laid there I thought to myself. I cleaned my house yesterday, I didn't overeat... I rollerbladded 1 mile and I still cooked dinner and got to watch big brother. I did all the things I wanted too and I still went to work on top of that. My alarm clock went off and I knew it was time to get up, so i jumped in the shower, got my handsome lil boy up for school and got him ready and still did my hair and dressed myself. I wonder all the time how moms "do it". How in the world do moms and wives make time for thereselves when they have so many other things to take care of. The unbelievable part is I was in bed by 9:15pm. I think to myself it would be so much easier if I only had to take care of me...but then I wouldn't be as happy as I am today If I didn't have my boys to get me through the days.. to keep me from being so bored all the time. They keep me on my toes, and even though I half to work extra hard to squeeze things in my day I would rather do that than to not have the very best guys in my life. I realized there is no reason to be upset just because you are feeling alittle fat one day... just keep trucking and sooner or later hopefully you will be truely happy about the way you see yourself and that is when everything else will fall into place. Today I am feeling very greatful for the things and the people I have in my life. I wouldn't be anywhere without each and everyone of you... "especially my boys"

09.08.2008

My day yesterday started extremely early... wow 4am. I am not used to that at all. I was trying to prepare by going to bed at 8pm the night before but it still came awful early. I headed to work and stopped and grabbed a taquito from whataburger on my way in and ate that.... i worked until about noon and finally finished up with processing to go back to my office. Felt like i had ran a marathon. It took all that I had to get through the day. A couple more hours and it would be time for my weigh in at weight watchers. It had been 2 weeks since i had gone because of the Labor day holiday. So i decided to get a salad from Subway... eweee it was disgusting. I didn't eat it I just ate crackers. 4 o'clock rolled around and the day was finally done and it was time to weigh in... so i headed to the meeting changed my clothes and was ready to FACE the scale. :( I was very nervous. I got on and found out that i had only lost .4 oz I was devastated. I wanted to get my stuff and leave the meeting right away... Give up and never come back. I decided that I would just stay and see how the meeting went. So i did. Maybe it was just a bad day... with the stress from a big day at work or something?? who knows... so i went home after the meeting put my Rollerblades on and went 1.5 miles I was not giving up that easy at least not without a fight. I am going to try my hardest to lose this week... and I pray to god that I do...If not I don't know that I will make it through another week of starving myself and seeing no results on my not so lovable friend "the scale".

In all fairness

I have realized over the last couple of days that most things in life aren't fair. Things that you work so hard to accomplish, things that you bend over backwards to prove. At times you have people to thank for helping you get where you are in life, but when each day goes by and you fight to keep the day going strong. You have no one to thank but yourself, you look in the mirror and think to yourself I am working to support my child, to give him a life he deserves and that is what keeps you going. Times get tough and you are ready to throw in the towel and the next day rolls around and your child is still there depending on you..... after all these years the one thing you have learned the only person you can depend on is YOURSELF. You are proud to know your child's dependence is what keeps you fighting day in and day out, whether life is fair or not. All in all when the day is done and you go home from work you will be no better than the man or woman standing next to you, No matter how good you look, or how much you make. It may have been a strong fight to get where I am today, but no matter what I am proud to say I did it!! I have the perfect child, the perfect husband and the perfect life. One thing I have learned throughout it all is "money can't buy happiness".

Walking at work

Today at work, Raeannan and I decided to walk everytime she wanted to take a smoke break. I have been trying everything to lose weight. I joined weight watchers back in June and lost some weight, but then went to Vegas and did nothing but watch myself gain it all back. So now I am trying to get back on track. I rollerblade in the evenings as long as the weather permits and now at work I will do my best to walk around the building while Raeannan smokes. I have done well with the weight watchers diet... eventho at times it is difficult. It is not a very hard diet at all it just gets expensive. Brad has been fairly supportive, but he does love to eat. He is not at all worried about his weight and dosen't care one way or the other the way people see him. But i do.... Sooner or later i hope to reach my goal and stay there, so i can be self satisfied and not have to stress so much about weight loss. It seems i have been on a diet for as long as i can remember. I am only steps away... I just half to keep on track and try to stay focused. This week's weigh in should be interesting, I feel I have lost and can't wait to find out!!!

The Day I Married My Love

I officially married the man I dreamed of my whole life, 52 days ago. It seems like I have known him 4 ever. We went to Vegas and were Married on July 14th 2008. That was 2 years from the day that I laid eyes on him. I can't believe how fast this time has flown. I have grown to love him in so many ways, more than I ever hoped or dreamed of. He is the reason I smile when I sleep, He is the reason I am so happy at times I cry. This man has brought so many brighter days to my life, I will never be able to Thank him. I used to think, that I would never find the one that completed me, until I met him. 2 years have passed and I could not have asked for a better partner to spend my life with. I finally found someone who wants to be with me day and night, someone who will never leave my side, someone who will always be there whether they are physically or not. He finds ways to cheer me up when I am sad, and ways to make me laugh so hard that I cry. This man, is irreplaceable. The one that let him go before, didn't know that he was my knight in shining armour. It is her that I have to thank, for making all my hopes and dreams come true. All I ever wanted was a family, and I now have that final peice to the puzzle. If I may add.... he was well worth the wait.

My first Post

I decided to create a blog, because my wonderful sister-n-law has one. Hers is alittle better than mine at this point but, sooner or later mine will get there. I figured maybe this will help us keep in touch alittle considering she lives 3.5 hours away. This may help with getting some things off my chest aswel. I have so far worked on it for about 7.5 hours and i am still thinking of other stuff i would love to share with whomever is interested in my life as the new Mrs. Bradley Washburn.